- Mom: ' well you need to call them and ask.'
- Me: i dont think you understand how much i cannot do that.
I should be studying for my exam on Monday, but I honestly just don’t want to.
And I just realized that you’ll never see it, I guess.
I hope you see this….
That feeling when you have something to say, but you’re too afraid to say it. Your hands get sweaty and your stomach starts to turn and you start breathing heavily without even noticing. Then what you have to say is something so long over due, you begin to tear up and your throat feels like you swallowed a big ass pill because you know you are wrong for waiting for so long.
I always start a text message, but can never seem to seem to put your name in to send it, so then I just hit cancel. I miss you more than you think, but I can’t find the courage to tell you. I do not deserve your time. I feel like you have moved on, and it’s okay if you do not want to ever talk to me again, but I hope you see this, and know that I love you more than I have ever loved a friend before. I miss you and right now I have no one, but if we were talking, I’d bet you’d be there.
